MIRRORIBIS

Fire Will Desire Magick What do you really want, and why do you want it? There, I stop. I stop at the "why". Why do I stop at the why? Because I usually begin to see that my desire is meaningless when contrasted with the high weirdness that is our universe. "Everything, monks, is burning" - The Fire Sermon Everything is on fire.

Something was damaged in a really unsettling manner. Red rust. Black blood. Curses of death and war. Dark violence. Revulsion. I do not accept this on some level.  I accept this on some level. Levels. Planes. Spheres. Fields. Currents. Energies. Matrices. Fluctuations. Manifestations and demanifestations. Waxing and waning. Cycles and their effects and the effects that cause cycles.  So many. I can't count them.  The ten thousand things. The one thing. The no thing. Reference points completely vanish without a trace in the infinite.  Right here, an entity, a flux in the Prima Materia, a morphic field.  It wields magical currents haphazardly, with little to no idea of what it's doing. Excessively casual technique. Still, the results manifest in strange and unexpected ways, I.E. here I am. Loose and free I am a falling down spiritual drunk. A town fool amidst a larger populus of entities than I have ever counted. Moving on...

Retiree. Me. Old. Irrelevant. Decay. Death. Laughter. Nervous laughter. Perspiration. Adjusting collar. Is he still there? He's right behind me, isn't he? Stalked. Sometimes he likes to take it slow. It's not as fun if you're expecting it.  It's about time for some Terror Management Theory. Does it matter, though, if death catches you by surprise? All you'll experience is some brief disappointment and possibly some embarrassment just before you haven't a care in the world. Afterwards, amnesia.  No anamnesis. No recall. No checking your mental notes to maintain and maintenance your ego. Which is really all the ego is… a doing… the maintenance of a system constantly evolving. A system that thinks it holds itself up. The ego doesn't hold itself up by its own bootstraps. It has help with it's transformations.  More on that later.